Back before I decided that my doujinshi ought to have at least some credibility to it -- and back when it was more deserving of a farcical title like "Holy Shito!" -- the opening scene incorporated all of the Apostles and Evas (well, most of them, anyway) leaving the "Eden premiere" of "End of Evangelion". (Yeah, as if Eden has cinemas...) It seemed I was really determined to actually draw this for a time, and this drawing was the pinnacle of my efforts. Never really put any effort into a background, but I drew all of the angels that needed to be in the picture separately, scanned them all in, and composited them to my liking with PhotoShop. Most of it is dodgy (::cough::Arael!::cough::), and my ideas for Bardiel, Ireul, and Tabris are outdated, but at least SOME of the characters are drawn well. And Barb and Naoko are doing the Team Rocket thing! (Well.. Naoko is, anyway.)

This is part of a little "storyboard" -- a term I, enigmatically, like to use to refer to very doodly panel-comic-type-things, so don't get confused -- I made Fall 2002 in which Zeruel and his buddy Ingethel have a little conversation about death. For the two of them, it's very deep. I went over all of my chicken-scratch handwriting with Trebuchet MS so that anyone who wants to read it actually can. Unfortunately, I decided to cut it off right before Ingethel pisses Zeruel off, which is at least mildly humorous, but we can do without at the moment.

Hmm, what Apostle might this be? Bioluminescent, vaguely birdlike, and holding a pair of spectacles... Might it be... Arael? She's an Apostle I can't seem to be able to draw no matter how hard I try -- it's the wings, mostly. I can't get them to look right! Obviously, though, you can't see much aside from her head in this picture, which is the precise reason why this one is online and the other ones aren't. ::p The beak is probably too long (though, with the available images of her, it's hard to be sure), and the eyes are, obviously, my own addition (though for all we know she might actually have them). And the spectacles... Erm, just a lil' visual gag. ::p

Ah, kissing Evas. Anyone actually reading this might be disturbed to know that I've put a considerable amount of thought into the matter (though hopefully if you've made it this far, it will take much more than that to disturb you). The matter demands at least some thought, methinks. Barb and Naoko love each other and, since they were both Lilim once, they're no doubt going to attempt to enjoy one another in typically Lilim ways. That includes smooching. Obviously, though, the Evas have a facial structure a bit different from our own -- the overall formation is very human, but the Evas lack muscular lips, cheeks, etc. -- so kissing won't be quite the same. The idea is the same, but the mechanics are different. (For your sake, though, I won't get into it.) Rather interesting stuff to ponder for fun, but incredibly difficult to draw. Doesn't stop me from trying, obviously.

And these two, again, doing what they do best -- makin' sweet Eva love. ::p Being an Eva has apparently put Barb more in touch with her more animalian side so, along with "making out" with Naoko, she'll also lick her beloved's face like a dog. Or something like that... At the same time, there's some hot core-on-core action going on, to which Nao-chan can only say, "U~". [I think that's Japanese for "Uh--!" or something...] I'm bizarre, I know.

More "storyboards"! If you did your reading, this scene should seem at least vaguely familiar. There's more to the storyboard for this sequence than what I've put here (left thumbnail for the first page, right for the second), but, since the files are so big, I just picked my favorite part. It doesn't spoil anything plot-wise, really -- it just shows Sachiel getting his arse kicked yet again. Fun. I don't think I made Kyoko quite callous enough, though.

What on Earth are those Lilim doing here? Ah, but two victims of that weird "Shift" phenomenon -- the Apostles Sachiel and Zeruel, to be precise, and hopefully you won't need me to tell you which one is which. ::P For a while, I was contemplating the thought of drawing the Lilim in BES -- whenever the puny creatures do happen to make an appearance -- in an anime style at least vaguely resembling Yoshiyuki Sadamoto's. You know, since the Lilim appearances of Yui, Kyoko, and Naoko are already established (well, okay, Kyoko might be stretching it a bit...). So, at first, I designed the Lilim forms of, say, Barb, Zeruel, Sachiel, etc., to be at least visually compatible with Sadamoto-ish characters. Eventually, though, I decided that I liked the idea of using my own quasi-realistic (and, er, blatantly asymmetrical? ::p) style of drawing hyoo-manz better, so everyone is in for an overhaul.* As a starting point, I attempted to revise my ideas for what Zer and Sachi look like as Lilim -- with mixed results. Zeruel looks like a thoroughly disgruntled jock to me, though this is probably appropriate... [There's actually a reason I drew him with a shaved head, though it's not worth getting into here.] He's actually an easier Apostle to Lilim-ize than most, given the fact that much of the structure of his face has a human homologue (Zer has cheek bones, a chin, a "nose", etc.). Sachiel, on the other hand... You could only really see a resemblance if I showed his whole body; my idea for his face derives almost entirely from how I view him as a character. [I mean, really -- a beaked disc with two holes in it, how are you supposed to turn that into a human face?] Granted, he looks a little OOC here -- Sachiel's supposed to have this adorably clueless expression at least 90% of the time. ;;> I guess I caught him at one of his more "confident" moments.

* And I have the arduous task of making Yui, Naoko, and Kyoko look considerably more like real people than they do in the anime. Naoko will probably be easy, Kyoko is doable, but Yui? I haven't been able to find any pictures of Japanese chicks that have that certain indescribable "Yui" essence to them. And, if she's to still have green eyes as a Lilim -- a must, in my opinion -- we're going to have to introduce some foreign blood. Yui's a hafu? Who knew?!

One of many odd sketches I've done of Yui lying on top of Zeruel and giving her daisuki na shito a happy little "love nip". Well, they can't exactly kiss, can they? Zeruel's face seems to be cartilaginous in composure and capable of at least the most minimal movement (episode 19, note his "expression" right before Yui smashes his face in), though by and by it doesn't seem capable of doing much. Since he and Yui are beyond predator/prey relations by this point (and the Apostle no longer has to fear Yui brutally chomping down on his face), Zeruel just might enjoy having his face nibbled on. He definitely seems to be enjoying himself here, at any rate... Call it "bestiality" if you want (because, technically, it doesn't come close) -- the thing that disturbs me the most about these drawings is the fact that Yui always ends up way too small. Chikushou....

Yay! Just a random Azza doodle from "Environmental Concerns" notes that looks kind of cool.

From 8/30/02, this is a strikingly rare example of me actually trying to draw nicely for a change. Not too shabby for being about a year old, though I guess the fact that I technically ripped the pose and shading off a photograph of ... some kid probably helped. Of course, if I did this today I would've done some things differently, but, overall, very nice. Just Zukori-chan -- looking kind of scary, for some reason -- with her little Sachiel doll. Yes, she actually has one. Where did it come from? Truly, one of BES's greatest mysteries... ;;P

Just some Azazel-spouting-stuff-that-won't-make-any-sense-to-anyone-but-me. It's a decent little doodle, plus, assuming you can read my handwriting at all, that's exactly the sort of sort of strange stuff you can count on Azazel to say in BES (even though this particular bit of dialogue will probably be altered a lot should I end up using it at all).

Hmm, so what's a cat doing here? Well, strictly speaking, she's not a cat -- though precisely what, I haven't decided. She's not an angel, if that helps matters at all. Keseph (props to Morgan-kun for inadvertantly naming her ;;>) is a relatively minor character who shows up later on in the story, but she does have an important part to play. This is a very preliminary sketch, so she'll probably get a few makeovers whenever inspiration strikes.

Thankfully, it doesn't last, but Sachi's current characterization calls for a bizarre pseudo-masochistic phase. Not like you can tell, but he's supposed to be shackled and chained to the wall of some imaginary angel-slave-dungeon of his sick little fantasy (a hallucination inspired by some dRuGz poor Sachiel decided to expose himself to). Yeah, it's wrong, I know... Be glad the scanned doodles of Dominatrix Yui wielding the Core-Cracking Mallet of Soul-rending Rapture™ are safely restricted to my hard drive... for now. <<MWAHAHAHAHAAAAH!>>

The weird thing that looks like a cross between Matarael and an octopus is the EVA and Apostles' favorite barkeep (he/she/it/whatever had some really lame name... like Alkhoel or ... something). There is, of course, more to this doodley storyboard, but it's all you really need to see, for now. When Zer starts going to bars instead of gyms, he's at the brink of disaster. Zer's kind of like Yui (ooo! a similarity!!) in that he's all about keeping his body "clean" -- you'll never see Yui smoking, or drinking, or shooting up, or nothing. Now, ordinarily, Zer wouldn't be putting such pOiSoNs into his big huggable meat-slab-ish self, but, at this point in the story, he's not having a very good time at all, and Sachi's recurring self-justification "DUDE, we're, like, angels, it doesn't really matter" has finally left its mark. So this'll be Zer's first and only drink, but he's well on the road for some substance-abusing brotherly bonding with poor lil' Sachi.

Ultra-krippy doodle of Yui before HIMMEL, the council of archangels in Heaven. Think Ritsuko standing naked in front of SEELE in e24npc (for "new production cut" -- I explain it here), except instead of a naked Ritsuko we have a naked Yui-sama, instead of "SEELE" the monoliths read "HIMMEL", and instead being complete darkness the backdrop is an unearthly ethereal (I love that word, "ethereal") setting (cloud-like and all, you know, the stereotypical idea of what "Heaven" is supposed to look like). From the scene where HIMMEL cryptically tells Yui that she is to found and be leader of the E.V.A. "organization"/sorority.

I think this drawing has some rather nice qualities, though to this date I'm unsure if the standard Lilim method of using a phone would actually work in Sachiel's case. It only got confusing once it occured to me that Sachiel's 'nostrils' and other breathing apparati (supposed to be plural of "apparatus") are located on his hips. So, given the case in "HS!" that Sachiel is capable of speech (oh, it's not such a stretch... he did make some noises in the anime, after all), if he breaths with his lower body I somehow came to reason that his faculties for speech would also be located on his lower body. (Definitely would be confusing for the EVAs at first, since they're used to someone's voice being emitted from the general "head" area.) Well, assuming my reasoning is valid, Sachi would have to hold the receiver on his pelvis or something, but there still remains the question of where Sachi's auditory perceptors are located. However, that question doesn't bother me nearly as much as the matter of how the bloody banana Sachiel eats...

From an attempt to draw the flashback scene where it is finally revealed exactly what happened between Zeruel and Israfel to mess poor Zer up so badly (or at least do its fair share). Some of the panels gave me a bit of trouble, and in my frustration/boredom I inked and colored in others that seemed to be cooperating a bit more, including this one here. I now know that Israfel's hand could not do what I've drawn it doing (the middle finger/claw should be but an extension of the arm, without any "jointage" whatsoever), but otherwise "he" looks pretty decent... And in case you're wondering, that blue stuff in the bottle Sraf's holding (I actually had to add the blue digitally, since in the unfinished original I hadn't put anything in the bottle, even though it's supposed to be full -- things in the story don't start going terribly wrong until the bottle is empty, see...) is, well, something that doesn't sit very well with Israfel, though Zeruel is ultimately the one who pays for it. Well, you'll see, eventually...

Gad-zOOks, never thought Yui's dirty side would ever make its way out... What a beast! What
an aNiMaL!! What sort of horrors does she have in store for poor Toilet Paper Boy?!? Does anyone really want to know??

Awwwww.... <<insides turn to sentimental mush>> It's probably hard to tell, but Zeruel seems to finally have overcome his fear of the Green-Eyed Monster. Upon this breakthru, it actually becomes possible that something sort of resembling "love" (oh dear...) can emerge from this most twisted of couplings (one self-appointed "Canuck" I've chatted with referred to it as ... "slash"). Well, on Zer's side, anyway -- strangely, Yui doesn't seem to be playing the romantic part here quite as well as Zer, who's evidently too caught up in bizarre sensations of sappy sentiment to notice the dangerous nuclear proximity... Then again, how the he11 are they supposed to just hug without some rather, ah, distracting, errr, core friction...? [FYI, in 'angel slang' it's better known as ... "nuking".] That's, of course, assuming I haven't screwed up on the scale here -- Yui may be just a tad too small, but it's fairly evident, in this screenshot at least, that Zer is, indeed, rather more voluminous than our heroine.